Another spoken wordish thing that i did while sick.
God, I know your love is pure, and God I know that it's true, but it just seems so obscure and so blurred. Why is it so hard to discern the wrong from the right, the black from the light? It seems like every single day, you just leave me. And once a week I hear your name and you come back. And the very next day, you're gone. God, I'm having trouble believing everything that you've been telling me for years. I'm having trouble seeing all the grace and all the love. I'm having trouble seeing how I'm supposed to live up to these standards that you wrote down for me to follow. And I'm having trouble walking towards you because it feels like every time I get close I get pulled away. And every time I yell out it feels like you have nothing to say. And I know that this is not how it's supposed to be, and I know that this is not okay. So why is it always this way? Why has it always been this way where every single time I get close to you I get ripped away?
released April 24, 2017
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